There's Gotta Be More?

sometimes i wonder if i ask too much from life.

i mean,i have certain expectations and the more i look around me,the more i worry none of this will ever come.

what i want from life seems to not exist anymore.

first of all,i want to love someone with values,someone who is willing to be my friend,not just my pretty looking boyfriend.

those kind of boys dont seem to be around on the planet anymore,or at least none that are NOT famous ;]

also, i miss the days when i was younger.

being surrounded by other kids,and having fun no mather what we did,just having fun.

who needed to be under the influence of something to be fun?

kids these days have forgetten exactly that,how to be kids,even on the inside.

if they had just a little of the innocence and zest they had 10 years ago they wouldnt need to get "wasted" every weekend to have fun.

i think im too different to live in this world.

i seriously have not met one single person who agrees with me,which is why i prefer being alone?

and you know whats weird?

the life im asking for now,10-15 years ago would have been such a normal request.

now im just considered some kind of killjoy who has the mentality of a 19th century housewife.

but i dont care.

i know that somehow life will smile at me and give me what i want

and you know why?

because im willing to search and work for it as hard as i can.